As I write this I am sitting on a mattress in my empty living room with a glass bottle of wine. The house is almost entirely packed for our move across country, and by "entirely packed" I mean the 7 boxes of stuff we're actually taking are scattered all over the place. As for the furniture and household items: most of it is all sold. I'm not really sure what we were thinking, getting rid of everything so quickly. Now we're to spend 2 weeks without so much as a refridgerator or a couch.
For some reason I'm pleased about it though, and the entire process seems really symbolic to me. We moved to Tasmania on a whim with only a suitcase each and a few hundred dollars. Together we spent months in an empty house, slowly building up a comfortable home around us. Now after 2 years we will spend our last few weeks living in the exact same manner as we began. With next to nothing. It's very cleansing but I'm sure other people would perceive this as borderline insanity, haha.
Not only will I be leaving a lot of my material items but I'll be leaving a lot of negative energy behind as well. (best cleanse the house before I go so the new tenants aren't bombarded, woops!) Moving to Tasmania and living such a solitary life for the past two years has been one of the most beneficial experiences of my life. I needed this time to be by myself and understand my own mind and heal from the trauma that 2010 - 2012 brought with it.
I'll be honest though, in saying that I'm a bit scared about rejoining society after spending so much time in my own company. Last year I left the house about 40 times? Not including spending time in my yard, of course. This year I have been a little better but I'm still quite sensitive and wary when I'm in public. All in all this marks the beginning of an entirely new phase in my life, one that I've been yearning for a little while now. I'm writing this blog post as something that I can look back on in a few months and see how different things are by then. Hopefully they're shining a little brighter than they are right now :smile:
My fantasy for the future is living somewhere in or around a rainforest, having friends close by and maybe even getting a job? That would be fun! Hopefully I can manage a large vegetable garden and a bunch of chicken and goat friends to keep me company. Oh, oh and maybe I could finish an entire year of university without dropping out? I think these are pretty achievable goals, really.
P.S I'm also hoping to leave a negative entity behind as well, although I need to do some more research over the next week or so because whatever it is...it's not coming to the mainland with me! I've had enough broken windows and mirrors and slamming doors, thank you very much.