Lynn, I really appreciate this part of your post. (The rest too, but especially this part.) So many craft-people upon realizing that I'm not respond to my statement that it's because of my family with "Oh, so you respect them too much to do this to them." No, that's not it at all. I don't respect their beliefs, I think their beliefs are bulshit that's the result of generations of brainwashing that I managed to escape from. But, I believe that they are so far beyond repair with these harmful beliefs that to really understand what I am and what I do would harm them in a very dramatic and significant way. The damage would by emotional and spiritual and manifest in the physical.