Oh thank you to everyone who posted recently and brought this thread forward. This is what I needed. I posted when I joined I was very unsure but i knew wiccan wasn't the "IT". There are too many excellent posts to quote so i am just going to thank everyone. I have been searching for years and questioning without any real questions but apparently I have had the answer to what I have been seeking all along. So I have been practicing the craft alone (until I had children)and all my life (I am 40). I don't use any "tools " except myself and the stuff I have on hand. I have been studying aromatherapy and herbalism for almost 20 years. I feel at home in nature while searching for plants. I have always thanked the plants for allowing me to harvest from them and their contribution to whatever I am using them for. The same with animals, when my uncle taught me to hunt, my first instinct was to thank the animal for it's sacrifice and providing us food. To this day I thank my chickens and ducks for their eggs and i taught my children to do the same when they help me. When I cook or make an herbal remedy I ask the herbs or plants to help with certain things I know they have properties to help with. My husband and children may giggle at me but I find comfort talking to what I am cooking or brewing or when I attend to my garden and animals. I maybe a shy person and I don't connect to other people. I do however connect with all things earth and in cannot quit talking to animals and plants. I also have always been drawn to the skies. I have always found myself star gazing. Thinking back, I have noticed this is when I question everything. I stare for hours at the moon or stars when the moon isn't available and blurt out 1000s of questions. I believe this is when I " meditate". for divination, I have always seen and heard spirits and oddly enough as a child and growing up I have just talked to them. I see someone or hear someone (or something) without a thought my instincts have told me ask them- why are you here or what do you want from me. I have noticed I almost always get what I want. If you "will it" you "will get it". It may not always be when you want it but it will be when you need it. It took me a long time to learn that I brought on the bad and good in my life. Thoughts and attitudes effect all aspects of life. I live the life that makes sense, makes me happy and gives me what I need. I guess I just needed someone to confirm my craft. Idk, maybe this is what I was seeking. Validation. Again thank you all.