I am hoping that with the wide range of people here that someone may be able to help me find a tradition which aligns with what I believe. I wish not to bore you with the long story (I am 36, this was not over night) of how my beliefs came to be, or how they came to me, but I will say that they are not from a source I have been able to find at least singularly, and they were formed before I read any texts. Hence, why I am asking for help. I will make this as brief as possible. Please, do not take all my terminological literal. Somethings, I really have a lack of better terms for, but, hopefully within my descriptions you will understand what I am referring to. This is a bit of a long read and if you chose not to read it I understand.
I do not believe in the good vs evil thing. I believe these were concepts created by the King who had the bible created to control people. Therefore, I don't believe in the pure opposing forces of angels and demons as they are presented in said book. That said I do not fully subscribe to evolution, either. I believe that there was interference in the process and maybe some where not even part of that chain, but not from little green or grey man either. Maybe, further in my beliefs a small picture might be created for you.
I believe there are for a lack of a better term layers of different beings and worlds which can be accessed by those whom are awake to them. It seems some feel theory need to use different methods to access them, thou, I personally am against the use of drugs and harsh psychodrama to access them. That is probably highly do to the fact I don't need that and feel like you put yourself at risk using them. No offense is meant or intended by this. I seem to have some odd, intense, reaction to even the mildest things like pot. My reaction seems to go far beyond what I have come to learn as typical for most. On the psychodrama, I don't need the intensity of it that I have read about. I wish not to insult anyone, I just lack that need. I guess my point with this is I need something more subtle.
Anyhow, back on track. In these layers/worlds I believe there are beings of both creation and knowledge. I also believe in spirits of this whom have pasted. Some stay, many have a layer of their own (a completely human type spirit). Some chose to continue to learn (reincarnation) and some take their places on different layers and can be different beings (but they were once these beings anyway they chose to be here for some purpose but must return to whence they came). Sometimes I believe there is a mixing of these things, but it isn't typical. In this I would like to point out when it comes to those human spirits that have past... dust is dust and mold is mold. "Orbs" are not what I am talking about.
I also believe their are nature type spirits. Not the Hollywood type, thou. I don't believe they are out to trap us. They are beings of knowledge and do want for human companionship at times. But, I don't believe they harm us or are succubus and the alike sucking out our lives. But, I also don't believe that they spend all day fixing nature and partying either. I think they are there and share of knowledge of nature energy, sometimes warn us and sometimes push us to new developments. I don't believe in as many types as I have heard about, thou, maybe, that is my own ignorance. Maybe, I can only connect with a few. This isn't meant to be insulting in any case. I would never trump or scoff at another views different to mine. These are only my personal ways of believing and I have yet to open every door.
I believe there is yet another group of more for the lack of better terms dark beings. Not demons out to punish us. But ones more of the creation factor. They hold deep knowledge of most everything created both physical and metaphysical. These are the where the powers of creation threw "chaos" are held. They are fairly scarey creatures, do to the fact, they do not resemble us and hold such strong energy. They stay in they dark usually just out of sight. They are not demons, they don't possess you nor do they serve as a punisher, nor do they wish to end our world. They helped create it why would they destroy it? They also like us to some degree but do not feel everyone deserves their knowledge or the ability to tap into their powers. They don't serve anything. They do as they please. They can take away and they can give. Fear is an extremely high energy source, much like creation. They don't feed on it per say rather aren't opposed to keeping it cycled. I can't properly describe it. They don't run out to spook us rather when you feel that tension of overwhelming fear in the dark, one of them could be near. If it isn't a bit of touch over from the human spirit realm. They can and will interact with us on different levels. Enough on that.
Then and these are not in order so you know. There is the what has been termed the "aliens" I guess for alack of better terms. Not the little green or grey dudes flying around in ufos. Rather they are the knowledge givers, and have had a direct impact on human kind and the advancement of it. They can appear as solid beings but are more "celestial" might fit? They don't slaughter cows or abduct us, ha ha! Rather I think these beings are the ones that thought us math, language, advanced building, and such. I believe these are the ones the myths of Atlantis and angels come from. They never had a city on earth, nor do they serve a God to protect us. Rather they are that gave us that "light", "divine" or whatever you want to call it. But they aren't the same they aren't all loving and gooey. They gave and so they can take away as well. They gave us the higher knowledge and helped us become what we are now both physically and mentally, but not all came from them either, if that makes any sense. I think who we are is somehow connected to what realm we meaning our "souls" come from. Sometimes our physical body shows that.. especially in those more whom are more connected with that side.
Anyhow, enough on all that. This has gotten far too long. But, these are the things I believe and are what we can tap into. The ones who are enlightened, anyhow. All these things are equally important from using herbs and being in touch with nature to the creation beings/forces. I don't believe this is an eclectic view. I believe it is an all in one and maybe I just can't express properly the fine details of how it is all interconnected. They are separate but not. Tapping into one means tapping into all. It is all a balance, no evil or no good. It just is. All creation is a unified thing but they don't hang out or torment each other. It is somehow all one. I can not describe it properly. Maybe, this is why I struggle so much? I feel there is some tradition out there that is all of this and I fail to find it cause I fail to know how to make it all relate properly.
Anyhow, if you took the time to read all of this, Thank You!
If you know what I am talking about, how it is all connected and a tradition that is this, please help me find it.