I am brand new here and somewhat new to witchcraft. That said, my whole life I've felt there was something different about me. I've always been able to sense people's true motives/feelings, and if I am not careful can absorb people energies. Lots of other things that have drawn me along the way. Wicca never appealed to me and I've just done my own thing. In hindsight I can see how I've used spells without really knowing that's what I was doing at the time. :-) I'm really new though to formally learning about traditional witchcraft but it really seems 'right' for me.
Anyway, to my current situation. Almost 3 years ago, my husband of 14 years left me. It's a long story of course but the gist is he cheated on me years before then basically started dating right before we separated. I was devastated. Now it's 3 years later and I've watched him go in and out of relationships. We have a son with autism so are communicate pretty regularly. Anyway, shortly after we separated I met a man who adores me but I was still grieving. He's still around but has his own issues but loyalty isn't one of them. He's basically just really poor. So my husband and this new man. I broke things off jan 15 with new man because I felt torn between him and my husband. After thinking there was nothing left, I filed for divorce finally, then my husband fell apart, wept openly in front of me so I thought maybe we had a chance. (Writing this I sound so pathetic. lol)
After a few months of him hinting about reconciling, I decided to just be straight and ask him. He said yes, but never did much of anything. Again I was heartbroken. He wouldn't leave the woman he had started dating. In my grief, I contrived a spell and got a stick and wrote her name on one end and his on the other and then broke it and drove her end 10 miles away and buried it on an abandoned road, then buried his end at my front step. I then took a picture of the two of them and tore it apart while saying the spell and took a picture of myself and put it face to face with his and tied it with red ribbon and put it under my mattress. Nothing seemed to happen but I felt a release in all of this. About the same time I ran into my boyfriend. Maybe 6 weeks later was his birthday and I sent a happy birthday text. He didn't respond for several days because he was out camping. We met for lunch and the sparks flew and we've been back together since.
Meanwhile my husband in one weekend has his girlfriend break up with him and the next day is asked to move out of his house. A few months later he has to move again and he tells me again he wants to get back together. But again has done very, very little to make that happen. One of the spells I said over and over was he would not be able to find love until he made things right with me.
So now I'm not sure what to do. He's deeply depressed now and I feel it's time for me to move on. I do love him, but I also love my boyfriend. Long story to ask how to undo any magick that has kept us tied to each other. I said to my husband the other day that I feel he can be happy with someone some day but I don't know if that's me. He broke down and held back tears. It feels easier now to let go that I'm clear headed and healed from the pain he caused me.
Thank you for reading this far and I appreciate any input.