Some random notes
So I made something that was supposed to help enhance my dreams, and it is having some unexpected results. I've had some success using certain herbs for this purpose, but I used them in a different way this time and instead of dreams, a few things happened. I mention them below, all examples happened the day after use, and all had a few days in between them.
The first was I was thinking about the weekend and how it was going to go. I was a bit nervous as I would be meeting some of my S.O's friends who were in town. Ive met them before but only once. I had sort of a daydream (the kind that you control only kind of, the ones that take over when you space out) where one friend in particular had split with his GF, and I knew that it meant more bad news in a vague sense . The friends get into town, and we didnt see the friend i thought about, but were informed that he and his gf split, and hes in a bad way about it. Why it feels like bad news I feel has something to do with my own relationship, but only time will tell.
The second thing was in another of those 'daydreamy' states, i had another one where my kid was starting to beleive in god and had a lot of questions because of hearing about it from people at his school. Today when I picked him up, he started asking me about god. Granted, his concept of god as it stands now according to him is a regular guy who lived with the dinosaurs and made everything and then died (lol).
This last one is actually the first to happen, its similar to the two above things in that it came to me in a peripherally aware state and was the next day, but its one I dont feel right sharing completely just yet (thats why I put it last). I wrote it off at first, then it happened two more times. I thought this was interesting for a couple of reasons. One, my intiuition will sometimes scream at me, or it will manifest in my dreams when I ignore it. I will either just know , and the knowing doesnt seem to come from anywhere in particular, its just a strong sense of what is that I cant explain. or my dreams start getting similar and I put together that there something more to pay attention to. It has never felt so passive, like "...oh by the way... heres a heads up about random things", so its different that way. and second it has never really been about random (or seemingly random) things. its unusual that they have more to do with other people because Im not used to that, though obviously im not entirely out of the scope of things. I suppose passive is the wrong word, its actually kind of less passive and more specific, but it feels that way, it feels nonchalant....until the moment it actually happens.
I've only used what I made three times, i didnt think anything 'happened' the first time, until i did it two more times and had two more coincidental daydreams the next day. Now im thinking it works, just in a different way than I intended. Its got me thinking about all kinds of possibilities for future recipes and things to try with it, but for now im thinking I need to continue with what I have for practice and seeing if it happens regularly when I use it, or if it continues to happen even if I dont. Anyone have thoughts or experiences to share? I would like to hear some other opinions?
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