over the past few months I had been emotionally overwhelmed by many things. I let everything get to me, I strayed from the path. I was just upset at everyone and everything. I went in last monday for a tubal ligation. Having no insurance at the moment I went to a "clinic" to have it done.
What happened was they didnt use anything they just started the procedure.
I did feel everything. The pain was strange though because I cried after it all. Not from the hurt but I had some kind of awakening through the intense pain. I felt like everything I had done, the anger the complaining the disappointment in life, has somehow manifested into that moment. Not so much as a punishment but to teach a lesson perhaps..
I am not sure what happened but I still feel strange..